Monday, March 21, 2011

tears of a daughter


my tears were dropping a minute ago when i saw these 2 pics on my phone. i miss the old days of seeing mama was smiling happily with papa when haris was doing his thing.but somehow, things will never be the same again. i just hope that papa wont leave us...for now...amin :'(

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

paranoid VS paradox


low self esteem and low confident level

itu adalah saye. bagi saye, saye tidak layak utk segala yang hebat di bumi ini.mahupun di akhirat nnt. sy tidak cantik, tidak menarik, tidak baik dan tidak memiliki kelebihan yang unik. saye amat sukar utk percaye jike ade yg menyayangi saye dan menyukai saye hanye kerane saye adalah saye. saye tau saye takde ape2. saye bagaikan paranoid VS paradox. saye kosong. harap sume org faham..

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Wednesday, March 2, 2011

dugaan seterusnya...tayar!

misalignment tyre vs cornetto ice cream

1) mule2 nak betulkan alignment kete
2) then tibe2 rase mcm kete bergegar so kne buat balancing skali
3) dah la dah nk time servis dah ni lagi 100km
4) tibe2 g kedai tayar, abg cine tu btau "aiyaaa ini kene ganti itu under arm punye besi sbb die sudah senget makan itu tayar sampai haus la amoi"
5) plus, kene ganti 2 tayar depan sbb mmg dah terhakis gile babeng akibat xbuat alignment sudah brape lame ntah.kate die, misalignment tyre.
6) pastu buat alignment n balancing dlu sbb nk beli tayar ori mahal la pulak!
7) pegi survey tayar plg murah rm140 yang ori punye. sebijik rm140 tau x??!!!kalau 2?darabkan lah!

oh sedihnye arini...

malas nak pikir last2 mkn aiskrim cornetto dgn fadhil..

thanx temankan i!

=)

at last...celcom!


my celcom broadband

at last, i finally get my own broadband.celcom is my choice.so, bleh la update story especially bout my friends sbb diorang slalu kate aku so yesterday sbb tinggal jauh kat sepang ni ha. dgn jalur lebar,semua dapat!

i bought celcom broadband limited edition chinese new year-loyal. ade 12 jenis. i bought yg loyal tu. gambar die pelik sket sbb ade mcm topeng mate hantu dajal. mule2 takut nak beli. nnt termimpi2. lgpon nnt mama bising plak apsl beli gambo patung bali?!!!huhu.tp disbbkn fadhil asked me to be loyal towards him.sbb gi beli dgn die.so....ok!u punye psl loyal pon loyal lah!mate dajal pon mate dajal lah!janji leh on9 aways =)

p/s:lajunye celcom broadband kt kota warisan ni!

hot tiket vs double prosperity

hot tiket!!!!

me and fadhil went to mcd excitedly to get our double prosperity burger from the hot tiket redemption.however, when we asked the mcd crew at the drive tru counter, he said:

mcd crew:hai cik boleh sy ambil pesanan?
me n fadhil: i would like to enquire regarding the double prosperity from hot tiket. could u please explain about it further?
mcd crew: ape die cik?
me n fadhil: ha?
mcd crew: kami minta maaf. tiada offer sebegitu di sini.
me n fadhil: *blur
mcd crew: kami minta maaf cik. kami tidak ada kena mengena dgn hot tiket.
me n fadhil: *blur lg...huh??ok..

so...we continue our story by ordering other menu dlm keadaan yg masih blur...selang beberape saat slps itu...baru kitorg realize...

me: bie!!!double prosperity tu ialah extra rm20 topap for hot tiket 20!!
fadhil: i dah agak dah!!!!
me: i malu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
me n fadhil: gelak mcm setan.HAHAHAHA...

p/s: dont be too confident =)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

DOA


Doa Cari Jodoh.......

"Ya Allah, kalau dia memang jodohku, jodohkanlah...
Tapi kalau bukan jodohku, Jodohkanlah juga...
Jika dia tidak berjodoh denganku, maka jadikanlah kami jodoh...
Kalau dia bukan jodohku, jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, selain aku...
Kalau dia tidak bisa di jodohkan denganku, jangan sampai dia dapat jodoh yang lain, biarkan dia tidak berjodoh sama seperti diriku...
Dan saat dia telah tidak memiliki jodoh, jodohkanlah kami kembali...
Kalau dia jodoh orang lain, putuskanlah! Jodohkanlah dengan ku....
Jika dia tetap menjadi jodoh orang lain, biar orang itu ketemu jodoh dengan yang lain dulu dan kemudian...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

dear papa

we miss u papa


Klang, 25 ogos 2010 - papa pengsan at our house in klang .i received a call from my sister. she said papa was admitted at the hospital and she thought that it was just a simple problem due to papa's fever. at that time in the morning i was at the office. but somehow, i felt something is wrong.something that made my heart felt so uneasy. i quickly asked for kak fiza's(my boss) permission to go and see papa. she let me go.

i rushed to see my papa. sue(my housemate) was there with me to keep me company. all i was thinking on my way to the hospital was whether last week was the last day i spoke to him or not. i was damn worried. fucking shit worried like hell i should say.

in the afternoon around 3pm i arrived at the hospital emergency ward. my heart kept knocking drastically. shit.i hate this feeling. then, i saw my mama, sisters and brother in laws. they looked so worried. my mama could not say a thing at all. that was the worst day in my entire life i should say. ya Allah, please help papa.

lepas tu, aku pegi kat tmpt emergency wad too see my dad's condition. i saw him unconscious. many doctors and nurses keliling katil. i saw lots n lots of wires, support machine, scary2 things kat tepi katil papa i. we had to wait for his scan result. takut gile.

after a while, doctor pon kua n told us the result. he said papa had stroke. serious one. mama terus nangis. nangis n nangis n nangis. we could not do anything. the doctor said we had to take him to sg buloh hospital since it has many neurologist. papa sakit stroke yg terok punye tahap i guess. doktor ckp kalau buat operation pon 50-50. then, i ran into the toilet. i couldnt stop myself from crying. xpnah aku rase sedih mcm ni dlm hidup.

sedih..

sgt2 sedih..


after that, kitorg sume gerak ke sg buloh ptg tu. sue msg all my frens especially yg kat ofis to update them about my dad's condition. then feroz update it on his fb status. sume kwn concerned. tq so much.

sume kwn2 papa, related, families sumenye dtg. papa masuk wad 7b. he was so critical. mmg sedekah yassin je xputus2. tp somehow aku xpnah rase give up for papa. for me, when going gets tough, the tough gets going.

papa kene masuk operation room. nasib baik sbb doktor xpayah operate papa.doktor just sedut air yg terkumpul dlm kepale papa kat area otak.

info tambahan secare tiba-tiba: do u know sakit stroke is cause of a jin by the name Ar-Raihul Ahmar? jin ni akan serang orang melalui angin masuk ke sarah n attack otak.care die sesatkan orang is to damage people's brain. bile otak dah xberfungsi, orang tu xleh nak berfikir, bercakap, ingat, apetah lagi beriman kepada Allah.then manusia akan hilang arah. tp it can be cured. jadi moral of the story ar-raihul ni is-
1) kalau bukak pintu rumah mase baru smpai rumah or bile nak kuar rumah, plis n plis bukak n nyorok dlu blkg pintu, bace bismillah (if nak kua) or bg salam (if nak masuk)..insyaallah ar-raihul xattack korang. kalo attack gak sile panggil otromen.
2) sile berhati2 memilih name anak anda

berbalik pd cite td, papa aku saket. pastu bile tgu lame sgt akhirnye operation was done. tp papa coma. sedih. heartbeat die jatuh from 100 ke 30..kritikal.lemah sgt. sian papa.

tp skrg papa beransur pulih.its almost 6 months papa kat hospital xblk2.tiap kali nak blk ade je problem here n there. bed sore la, sawan la, heartbeat jatuh la, demam la, maslh penghadaman la, n the latest is blood cloth. however, we refused not to do chemo for him. i suggested mama to continue giving papa alpha lipid. we hope that alpha lipid can cure him slowly as well as our prayers towards giving him the strongest heart to fight with the enemy, which is call stroke tu la.

to everyone...please keep on praying for my papa as i always hope that papa will come back home and live happily with us..lets hope for miracle..

we miss you papa.

=(

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