dear papa

we miss u papa

Klang, 25 ogos 2010 - papa pengsan at our house in klang .i received a call from my sister. she said papa was admitted at the hospital and she thought that it was just a simple problem due to papa's fever. at that time in the morning i was at the office. but somehow, i felt something is wrong.something that made my heart felt so uneasy. i quickly asked for kak fiza's(my boss) permission to go and see papa. she let me go.

i rushed to see my papa. sue(my housemate) was there with me to keep me company. all i was thinking on my way to the hospital was whether last week was the last day i spoke to him or not. i was damn worried. fucking shit worried like hell i should say.

in the afternoon around 3pm i arrived at the hospital emergency ward. my heart kept knocking drastically. shit.i hate this feeling. then, i saw my mama, sisters and brother in laws. they looked so worried. my mama could not say a thing at all. that was the worst day in my entire life i should say. ya Allah, please help papa.

lepas tu, aku pegi kat tmpt emergency wad too see my dad's condition. i saw him unconscious. many doctors and nurses keliling katil. i saw lots n lots of wires, support machine, scary2 things kat tepi katil papa i. we had to wait for his scan result. takut gile.

after a while, doctor pon kua n told us the result. he said papa had stroke. serious one. mama terus nangis. nangis n nangis n nangis. we could not do anything. the doctor said we had to take him to sg buloh hospital since it has many neurologist. papa sakit stroke yg terok punye tahap i guess. doktor ckp kalau buat operation pon 50-50. then, i ran into the toilet. i couldnt stop myself from crying. xpnah aku rase sedih mcm ni dlm hidup.

sedih..

sgt2 sedih..

after that, kitorg sume gerak ke sg buloh ptg tu. sue msg all my frens especially yg kat ofis to update them about my dad's condition. then feroz update it on his fb status. sume kwn concerned. tq so much.

sume kwn2 papa, related, families sumenye dtg. papa masuk wad 7b. he was so critical. mmg sedekah yassin je xputus2. tp somehow aku xpnah rase give up for papa. for me, when going gets tough, the tough gets going.

papa kene masuk operation room. nasib baik sbb doktor xpayah operate papa.doktor just sedut air yg terkumpul dlm kepale papa kat area otak.

info tambahan secare tiba-tiba: do u know sakit stroke is cause of a jin by the name Ar-Raihul Ahmar? jin ni akan serang orang melalui angin masuk ke sarah n attack otak.care die sesatkan orang is to damage people's brain. bile otak dah xberfungsi, orang tu xleh nak berfikir, bercakap, ingat, apetah lagi beriman kepada Allah.then manusia akan hilang arah. tp it can be cured. jadi moral of the story ar-raihul ni is-

1) kalau bukak pintu rumah mase baru smpai rumah or bile nak kuar rumah, plis n plis bukak n nyorok dlu blkg pintu, bace bismillah (if nak kua) or bg salam (if nak masuk)..insyaallah ar-raihul xattack korang. kalo attack gak sile panggil otromen.

2) sile berhati2 memilih name anak anda

berbalik pd cite td, papa aku saket. pastu bile tgu lame sgt akhirnye operation was done. tp papa coma. sedih. heartbeat die jatuh from 100 ke 30..kritikal.lemah sgt. sian papa.

tp skrg papa beransur pulih.its almost 6 months papa kat hospital xblk2.tiap kali nak blk ade je problem here n there. bed sore la, sawan la, heartbeat jatuh la, demam la, maslh penghadaman la, n the latest is blood cloth. however, we refused not to do chemo for him. i suggested mama to continue giving papa alpha lipid. we hope that alpha lipid can cure him slowly as well as our prayers towards giving him the strongest heart to fight with the enemy, which is call stroke tu la.

to everyone...please keep on praying for my papa as i always hope that papa will come back home and live happily with us..lets hope for miracle..

we miss you papa.

=(

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